I keep two notebooks now. In my first, I continue to write about things I do during the day, and Olivia's progress in her grief. I write how much it hurts to have Jess gone, and about how well the boys are doing. I write about Ed, and how protective he's become. About how I know he'll take care of me. I write about how much I miss home and how eager I am to get back to what is going to pass for civilisation when the weather changes. I write about missing coffee. Dear lord, how I miss coffee. The raiding parties never bring back enough.
Olivia keeps this one.
